joie: Finishing some projects

Right now I am typing one letter at a long, laborious time using the hunt and peck method. That is because I am wearing my gardening gloves. The reason I am wearing my gardening gloves is that I am on my last-ditch desperate attempt at getting the black goo off my hand that has already defied soap, rubbing alcohol, scrubbing with a stiff brush, soaking and acetone. So, my last-ditch attempt is to cover my hands in a generous layer of Vaseline and put on my gloves. Oh my God, I am going to be so embarrassed tomorrow when I have to go to the doctor!! I still carry around in my unconscious my mother's admonition to "wear clean underwear to the doctor's". Funny, my doctor has only seen me WITHOUT underwear....Anyway, my point being I harbor a deep-seated anxiety that it is important to have good grooming for the doctor, LEST YE BE JUDGED, which is rooted in childhood. So, tomorrow I will go looking like a grease monkey who doesn't wash. I could DIE!! I have contemplated going for a Audrey Hepburnesque look and wear gloves and a hat, but that is so not me. Anyone out there have any ideas?!? This stuff is an expanding foam for filling cracks in our pond. It gets all over everything and is impossible to remove. I will NEVER use it again!!!

And the good news is....The pond is 95% done! I will post pictures as soon as we reach 100%. I am soooooo excited!!!!

The reason I go to the doctor tomorrow is I am ready for my fourth and final (at least for a while) IUI. The gonal-F worked pretty quick and I triggered last night. This is it. I have four mature follicles and have gotten the "have we discussed the risk of multiples?" lecture from about 5 different people. At this point, I just want a baby!!!! Or two. Not three. PLEASE not four. But, whatever it takes!!!!

I am especially primed for this because I have had a very babyful weekend. Friday, I visited my assistant and her beautiful 3 1/2 week old daughter. It was amazing to hold her. I know, EVERYBODY says this, but you really do forget how tiny a newborn is. And sweet. I could just hold her all the time and not do anything else. Then, Saturday went to a party. My sister went too and had a really good time (good for you, Eileen!) So good, in fact, that Dan and I decided to take the kids home with us and let her continue her good time. We got to play mommy and daddy for about 12 hours. And it was nice. Elizabeth slept on the couch. Reinforced with garbage bags and a thick layer of blankets since we couldn't find a pull-up. Without a crib in the house, we got to try out the family bed. Ian slept with us. Its amazing how much space a 25 lb. person can take up in a bed. Especially when they insist on sleeping sideways with their feet in your face. But, it was so nice to wake up and cuddle and to watch his big blue eyes figure out where he was and smile as soon as he did. I am SOOO ready to be a mom! Lets hope tomorrow we get lucky!

Comments

As someone also approaching IUI 4 (assuming my blessed period ever shows up), best wishes to you. My husband keeps saying, "Multiples wouldn't be THAT bad, right?", whereupon I beat him round the head with a blunt object. Yeah, we want kids, but I don't want 2/3/4 at the same time. Ugh. My body ain't built for that.

Anyway, thanks for linking to me, I'm glad I found my way to you!

Posted by: MsPrufrock | July 25, 2005 at 02:07 AM

A friend of mine directed me to your blog. I too was supposed to start the Gonal F shots this past week after 5 years of trying. Luckily I ovulated on my own for the first time so we went the ala-natural route. I am hoping and wishing the best for you and your success!
At least when you are lying there with your butt propped up for 30 minutes you have some great reading material! :)
Good luck!

Posted by: saraj | July 25, 2005 at 05:45 AM

So excited! I hope this is it for you! :D I also hope for one baby for you... Glad the Gonal F worked well and all but... just one (or two) please! :D

Posted by: korin | July 25, 2005 at 05:29 PM