Yeah, so the run of the mill raising two children under age three and working was getting a little easy for me so I decided to throw in the holidays, a husband with a mysterious as-yet-undiagnosable medical mystery and selling a house while figuring out what to do if it actually does sell. NOW my life is interesting.
Today is a day for looking back. The end of a year, a decade. A big decade. A lot happened. The world changed in so many ways. My world changed in so many ways. I would love to write a long beautiful post analyzing this in great detail, but its past midnight and those kids wake up sooo early.
To summarize, changes happened in a very whirlwindy kind of way and now that some of the dust is starting to settle I am finding its time to sort through all the debris and make some decisions about what to keep and what to toss. This blog started out as a place to write all the funny stories that just HAD to be told about my ca-RAZ-EEE job working with emotionally disturbed children. Very funny, but mostly removed because I realized this is a much smaller world than originally thought. Then having babies proved harder and more painful than originally thought. All that is still here. I'm too tired and lazy to link. Scroll through if you are interested. I chronicled my years of infertility treatments. But then, right as I was about to embark on my first IVF cycle, it had to be canceled due to pregnancy. Go figure. In May 2007 I became a mommy to Gabriel and 20 months later his surprisingly easy to conceive sister, Eloise. Life has never been the same. Nor has blogging. I guess I never really found my voice as a mommy blogger and as much as I love being a mom, I just don't have much to say about it that seems very interesting. Oh, I write a mean Facebook status once in a while, but a whole blog post?
So, today I joined NaBloPoMo for January and I intend to exercise those muscles again. It will take a while to find the purpose of this blog, but I'm starting to get an inkling...I have always been a creative person. I minored in fine art in college. I love to sculpt, paint, draw. I knit, I have a loom gathering dust in my garage. In the last few years I have not found the time, or made it a priority. And there is a hole in my life because of it. Not only that, but I have a craft closet with half done quilts and baby sweaters literally falling out of it (did I mention we are trying to sell the house and the storage unit we rented to help it seem less cluttered is already full?) My resolution for 2010 is to work on these projects a little every day. And (the HARD part) not start anything new until I finish something old. I need to create to feel alive. My little sister, who amazes me with her creative bold designs and lifestyle talked me into joining this. I'm starting small. My goal is a pastel sketch of my children each day (while technically something new, I am not buying anything new to do this. I am using already owned materials, which means I am finishing something I already started). 10 minutes a day. I can do this. I'll be writing everyday and sketching everyday for a month. This could be life changing.
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