For a while there Facebook took over all my internet energy. More accurately, I should say SUCKED it all. I'm about over it. I think I've found all the ex boyfriends and the high school buddies and the college roomates and it hasn't changed a thing. I think the addiction originally started when I was HUGELY pregnant in a snowstorm last December. I was trapped inside and so was the majority of my world. Facebook was abuzz. Then I had baby #2 and my physical world became very confined. I lived my life from nap to nap. In 30 seconds I could have the illusion that I was interacting socially while the diapers soaked without taking my eyes off the toddler. But I wasn't. And the loneliness is sinking deep.
Yesterday I met up with some mamas from a play group I used to attend religiously when Gabe was a tiny infant. Around the time our babies started to walk and talk, we disbanded. I have missed them fiercely and am so happy that more and more of us are reconnecting.
In between the Mafia Wars and Farmville postings I have been noticing a surge in blog postings for NaNoBloMo (or whatever....). This got me curious and I went back to check in on several of the blogs I used to follow. All this time I haven't been writing, I also stopped reading blogs. I just stepped back. Not sure why. Its been so fun to see all the lovely mamas I followed through heartache and infertility with beautiful babies and children. Now struggling through the frustrations and joys of parenthood.
I was completely surprised to see that someone actually still links here. That one blogger has not completely written me off as fallen off the face of the planet gives me hope. And inspired me to post. So the rest of you might be posting every day this month, but that I did it at all is my accomplishment.
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